or lets say, congrats me for being able to last through the week... but still, here comes the fatigue i hate the most after being stressed for 5 days, like the post-exam sickness... when u fell sick right after your last paper...
but y i hate feeling sick? let me describe to you why...
i went dinner with JR, but right before that, the whole aftn im having a hard time concentrating at work becuz of my massive gastric pain which has weirdly affected my back too... no, my doctor didnt do anything after knowing im unwell, no, my colleague didnt do anything.. or at least, she helped me... no, my incharge didnt suspect anything even though my face is twisted with pain and i asked for antacids... NO. thats nt the worst...
or at least something helped alittle to ease the pain. JR n yiruma's music... while i board the train, i found and seat in a small corner n rested my head against the wall... listening to yiruma's music helped me to relax alittle, but still the pain is there... didnt dare to tell JR cuz i dun wan him to wori too much, or to miss his meeting with his friends. im sori but i still have to say its unbearable, i closed my eyes cuz i realise my eyes are constantly wet... everywhere of me is aching, my head is bursting, i feel so breathless. i felt dizzy ever since aftn, but at least i maintained my steady gait.
while i was walking home frm the mrt station. i felt like my soul and my body is tearing apart. i feel like im floating even though i noe im dragging my feet when i walked. my soul wants to run home but my body just felt like falling apart... its scary... my mum thinks im rude cuz i didnt reply her question, im too tired to...
i need rest... but i miss him... tell me what to do... wonder y i feel insignificant.
Her '
Joanne
superwoman 23
25/9
-LoVeS JR
animals
her family
her dog
her friends
to be loved
say lame jokes that ppl dun laugh at
-WiShEs earn more money so that i cn have..
more vacations/holidays
get my driving license have a dog to never have to hurt anyone again
to love again to get married to him to be able to lead a happy life
to smile everyday
-DiSlIkE- being hurt and vice versa
being hated/ignored
being dumped
crying/making ppl cry boldunderlineitalicstrike
