Rest Today, Chiong Tomorrow. My battle strategy for today, hahax, cuz definitely, tmr will be a big war. Prof's clinic has never been easy to run. Yeah, im stuck at home with a mc, hot weather and lots of spare times.
Whenever i have lots of spare time, i usually will spend them thinking about... random stuffs i guess, and when i did, i cant help but feel abit emo.
Something that im thinking about is how do you know if you're doing enough for a relationship? Some might say, 'simple, just give your best, and you will have no regrets.' Im here to query them, 'So if you have given your best, how do you know if the other party is appreciative or is giving his/her best too?'
The biggest challenge for me in a relationship is not whether you and your gf/bf has similar interests or not, it is to cope with me, having insecurity when problems arise and having to talk myself out of it. Having the urge to query myself 'if i dont ___ will he ___? , if i ___ does he ___?, what happen if ___?' . Being so afraid of differences in each other life and how we handle things bring a sense of insecurity. I know its normal for 2 human being to have differences, cause that is where compromising comes along isnt it? But what if, thats the habit of that person? Will you try to change him/her? As people has said, the more you love the person, your expectations of him/her rises too. So what happens if the person cant fulfill your expectations?
There's too much 'what ifs', 'what happens' and 'what am i going to do' in my head right now, maybe im just being too much of a thinker, or maybe im just preparing myself for all those unexpected problems? I cant decide. I guess i must blame my low self-esteem for these, im just too afraid to lose JR. Whenever i picture the worst thing that may happen, it just bring tears to my eyes. It might not happen i know, telling myself to be optimistic.
The only thing that stays the same is change. The more you want something to stay the same, the more things will change.
What is love? It may be a chapter in a guy's life, but its the whole book to a girl.
People, never break the heart that truly loves you. He's/she's not perfect, you arent either, but if he/she can make you laugh at least once, cause you to think it twice. Admit to being human, we make mistakes. So, hold on to him/her and give the most you can. Its not going to be easy, but at least you know you have done your best. Im trying not to think so much. I envy people who has a heck-care attitude, cause sometimes, they are the real happy-go-lucky bunch. I may be wise, but i tend to think too much into things. To stop asking myself questions that i cant answer, cause only the particular person has the answer but too afraid to hear the answer that i dread the most. The hated the most when i have to tell myself 'i told you so'.
I wish i will never lose you JR, i cant believe i have put in so much feelings into this relationship in such a short time. Is this a good thing? Will it cause u stress? What more can i ask of you, your more than i can ever deserved. Too much more than i can EVER deserved, i dont know what have ive done to even to have the honour to know you, needless to say to have u as my bf. Is this a dream? Cause if it is, i'll rather not wake up. NEVER. Ive never believed in fairytales, but now i do after i get to know you.
Don't leave me.
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Joanne
superwoman 23
25/9
-LoVeS JR
animals
her family
her dog
her friends
to be loved
say lame jokes that ppl dun laugh at
-WiShEs earn more money so that i cn have..
more vacations/holidays
get my driving license have a dog to never have to hurt anyone again
to love again to get married to him to be able to lead a happy life
to smile everyday
-DiSlIkE- being hurt and vice versa
being hated/ignored
being dumped
crying/making ppl cry boldunderlineitalicstrike
